Today four years ago I went into hospital early in the morning to deliver my third baby. I so clearly remember all the thoughts, feelings and emotions that are part of such a special day. Will my baby be a boy or a girl? The Lord had clearly told me NOT to find out the sex during my pregnancy. Will it be the girl that the Lord had promised me? What will he or she look like? My heart was so full of expectation as the moment got nearer. Then….”It’s a boy!” In that moment my Father in heaven said….”He is meant to be, I have a destiny and a purpose for this boy that your other two sons cannot fulfill”. We felt such a love for the child in my arms, such peace that he was indeed meant to be. Still…..where was the daughter the Lord promised me?????
On the same day, just two years earlier, somewhere in China a young mom also prepared to give birth to her child. The difference for her was that she was, by law, unable to find out the sex of her baby. She would have to carry the baby till birth, and then discover whether it was a boy or a girl. She no doubt prayed many prayers….asking for a son. In China, a son is of great value to a family. And since they are only allowed one child, this mom, like all those before her, must have begged God for a son.
How did she feel the moment her child was delivered? How did that mommy feel the moment she was told “you have a healthy daughter.” A sadness that I may never be able to comprehend must have flooded her entire being. She held onto her precious baby for about 4 months, loving that child as any mother adores her baby. She bonded with her baby. Then the time came when she had to say goodbye. When her sweet daughter was just for months old, for reasons we will never know, she wrapped her snuggly in a blanket and placed her at the entrance to the orphanage….never to know what the future of her daughter may hold. What pain and agony beyond which my heart can comprehend.
Oh my heart! Today as I think about my daughter’s biological mom my heart breaks for her. I am sure that not a day goes by that she does not think about her child. Oh Father in heaven, on this day, our precious Hannah-Claire’s birthday, I pray that You would send your angels to bring comfort to her birth mom in China. My mind cannot comprehend the sadness she must feel, my heart will never understand it. But You do! Let her know that her daughter is loved and treasured more than words can say. Let her know that she is, and always will be, loved as if she were born of my own womb. May she KNOW in the depths of being that her daughter is taken care of and treasured by her new family. Thank you for my daughter’s birth mom, thank you that she chose to give life to my daughter. I will never know her, Father, but you do. Tell her “thank you” from me 🙂
Yes, God is still in the business of miracles. He quietly goes about putting the pieces of our lives together, often in ways we can never imagine or comprehend. Yes, He did promise me a daughter, and yes, she was born on August 30…just two years sooner than I thought. How amazing are your ways, Lord Jesus! Already we can see how Cade was “meant to be”….he is joy indescribable! We just cannot imagine our lives without this sweet boy. Your ways are NOT our ways, Lord Jesus. You do all things well!
Happy birthday sweet blessings. What a joy that you share the same birthday, what a God-thing! Someday, you will both understand how your Father in heaven destined, before the foundation of the earth, for you the share the same birthday.