According to my husband, things never really stay the same around here for very long. He is probably right—I love change. If things can change, they probably will. Although, I am quick to remind him that I have ACTUALLY had blond hair for over a year now—quite a record I tell you. So, a new bog layout is just one of the many things I CAN change 🙂 FUN!
Other things are also changing around here, some of them a little harder for me to adjust too. My meeting at the school yesterday was good (I think). I spent an hour with the staff—talking about Haven, laying all my cares and concerns about enrolling her in school on the table and listening to what they had to say. I must admit, they are very nice and seemed genuinely concerned about our daughter. There seemed to be a real excitement in the room at the possibility of helping Haven learn and develop.
I sat there asking the Lord to give me a reason, any reason, why we should NOT enroll her. Why it would be the worst thing we could possibly do to her. “Show me that I’m right, Lord—confirm in my heart why this is a bad idea”. So pathetic! Oh my goodness, I was looking for signs all over the place—any reason why I should walk away and shut that door behind me. Just keep Haven home with me. But, there was nothing! No restlessness in my heart, no bad feelings or desire to walk away from the whole idea. I realized that God may be giving us a different way to help Haven, that homeschooling her (at least in this season) is perhaps not the best thing for her. Perhaps I am just not equipped to help her with the therapy that she so desperately needs.
So friends, after much prayer and seeking God, we have decided to enroll Haven and Hannah-Claire in Kindergarten. They will go half days (at least for the first few months). What the school is offering Haven is actually amazing. She will have Speech Therapy and ESL every day. In addition they are going to give her very regular Occupational Therapy and Physical Therapy (she has very low muscle tone). We cannot beat that. There is nowhere else that she is going to get that kind of help. I am thankful that the class is kind of small, only 16 children in it. And, her sister will be right there with her. Hannah-Claire loves to tattle, so if anything happens—I KNOW my little tattler will tell me all about it. I have a little spy in the classroom 🙂
This is hard for me. Having homeschooled my kids for almost five years now, it is hard for me to “let go” and let someone else have my children. Crazy, I know. I guess there are times when one size does not fit all, times when things have to be adjusted and new methods have to be brought in. This is one of those times for me, it is a time of allowing my God to do what He needs to do, and give Him the freedom to do it the way He chooses.
Tomorrow morning the girls will go and spend a couple of hours at school. I know they will be just fine. Me? Well, lets just say that some changes are easier to deal with than others.