As soon as I walked into the courtroom this morning, I knew. I just knew that the judge would say ‘no’ to the waiver. When he came into the room, I was even more convinced. I knew in the spirit what I was up against.
A vicious battle rages for the lives of all orphans.
I have so much to share–there is so much on my heart.
But, plans have had to change and I am heading home for a few days…empty-handed. I have to. Financially it is too hard to stay here and wait this out. And, I have five little children at home that cannot go for seven or eight weeks without seeing their mommy. We still have at least another three weeks to go before this process is done here. It is so crazy. The ten day waiting period all of a sudden became a fourteen day wait with all the public holidays in May. So terribly unfair. My children have to remain in an orphanage longer and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it.
Oh my goodness, the thought of it brings rivers of tears.
I am absolutely heartbroken, I am so torn…but standing firm in my faith. There are times when our answer from heaven is not the one we so desperately wanted. But I know my God is still working things out on our behalf. In ways I cannot see. I cannot only praise Him when I’m on the mountain top, but so deep down in the valley too…like today, when my heart is aching to bring my girlies home with me.
We’re putting one foot in front of the other and following His lead. He is still on the throne! Hallelujah.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. James 1:2-4
Blessed be the name of the Lord!