The last year has stretched my heart unlike any other. We have walked through some of the hardest seasons and situations in our 23 years of marriage. I have had so many days when I understood more fully than ever before the heart of King David when he cried out to the Lord, “How long, oh Lord?” in the thirteenth chapter of Psalms. Days when challenges felt like a close companion and we wondered how the Lord would come through for us.
We all go through seasons of trials. His Word promises us that none of us is immune to the depths of the valley of hardship.
After 25 years of knowing Jesus as my Rock, I have come to understand something on a deeper level over the past year. A truth that I so often forget when I am so deep in the trenches, trusting for breakthrough in an area.
Grace is multiplied.
When trials come knocking on our door, I so often forget to look back on my life and see His amazing grace that was enough in even the toughest of challenges. I have faced the trials in my own strength and forgotten that the Everlasting Arms that carry the world are more than able to carry me too. Being a fixer by nature, I am so quick to set out to make all things right in our world. I am hasty in my often-feeble attempts at restoring all the things that the enemy wants to steal, kill and destroy in our lives. I become exhausted and worn out taking what was never mine to bear upon my own shoulders.
And I so easily forget.
I forget that the grace He gives me every day and every minute and every second as He calls me to walk my path never, ever runs dry.
I forget that His favor goes before me and behind me and is forever beside me.
A few weeks ago, I was having a conversation with one of our young adults. Raising little kids has been so much fun. I really treasured every moment when they were young, but I must say that parenting children getting older and maturing into adulthood has been such a special time for me and Anthony. We have loved the shift from being a parent to being a friend—holding them close while letting them spread their wings and embrace all that the Father has for them. I love this season of watching my big kids grow. Anyway, our conversation led to a discussion about all the stresses that come from having to make life choices and the overwhelming feelings that come from having to navigate many things on a daily basis. I certainly don’t have all the answers, and most of the time I am learning to listen well instead of sharing my two cents. But when they ask me, “How do you figure it all out, Mom? How do you know what you’re supposed to do?” To that, I know the answer…
“His grace will chase after you! And the favor from heaven will be enough for you every day of your life.”
Grace is multiplied.
The grace that I need to be a good mother to my children is always enough.
The grace that I lean into as I go about my busy, daily life is always enough.
The grace that I speak over our lives as we journey through each season is enough.
How easy it is for me to put God in a box and forget that the grace He lavishly poured upon my life yesterday will meet me right where I’m at today, too.
Matt Redman wrote a song years ago called Your Grace Finds Me. I love it, and so often on those hard days, I find myself singing the words as a prayer and declaration over my life and the lives of my family. Because it’s so very true…
…His grace will always find us.
His grace finds me seeking and searching and trying to make the right educational choices for our children in a world where school is so completely different to all other years.
His grace finds me taking a child to yet another (and another and another) medical appointment in an effort to give them the very best and most amazing life possible. And trusting His goodness in the midst of it all.
His grace finds me going about the seemingly mundane, everyday chores that it takes to keep my home and my family running smoothly. And finding indescribable joy in it all.
His grace finds me longing for family so far away and missing friends so dear to my heart. And knowing that I am right where I am meant to be.
His grace finds me pouring my heart out for seemingly impossible situations that have no end in sight, and standing in the steadfast assurance that He works out ALL things for the good of those who love Him.
His grace finds me looking at the world we live in and worrying about the what the future will hold for our children and their children. And choosing to trust that He holds the whole world in His hands.
His grace finds me from the moment that my feet hit the ground in the morning to the time that I fall into my bed at night.
Every moment of every day…amazing, undeserved grace that multiplies day after day after day.
This life is just a vapor, isn’t it? We’re all just passing through. Today I’ll continue to choose to walk by faith and not by sight and know with everything that is within me that it is true…
…His amazing grace will always be sufficient for me.
Today, choose to rest, friends. He has you!
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” ~~ 2 For 2:9