Yesterday my children and I were in the bank. I was getting a money order for our Chinese Visas. The bank teller was curious about what the money was for. Why does anyone pay $520 to the Chinese Embassy? I was telling her about Haven and she kept asking me questions about her special needs. As I was getting ready to leave, she looked at me and my children and said “wow, I guess you really do not want to live a simple life!”
Mmmmmm….that got me thinking. For the last few years I have told my hubby that I LONG for a simple life. And yet, here we are adopting a little girl with many needs, and we will have 5 children aged 9 and under….trying to homeschool three of them. The teller is right, there is really nothing simple about it. Do I really want a simple life, or will I always long to live at the place where life is crazy and unpredictable? Or, is it possible to find simplicity in the chaos of daily life…maybe that should be my goal!
God is really stretching me and reminding me of desires that He placed in my heart a long time ago. Desires that I thought had been replaced with other dreams. I will share more as things begin to unfold. I feel like I am in a season of searching my heart and laying every dream that I have before the Father. I am excited to see what He does with them…I have a feeling the journey ahead will be anything but simple 🙂